seriously, nt i dun wan to blog, but bcoz i gt nth to blog.

wads so gd to blog about work everyday, when u have nth except work.

i have received complaints, i have heard rumors, i have seen the fact that some group (of friends) or treat laikuan (me!) as invisible now.

coz laikuan nv joins them for dinner for outing and whatsoever.

why not come and put urself in my shoes?

why not face the bosses and seniors that im facing now, who are practically pressurizing u everyday single to OT and OT? monday to friday, nt enuff, saturday and sunday also must come back.

why not face the schooling pressure i have now? i had to be late for at least 15 to 30 mins for lessons, at least 3 assignments and a exam for every modules i take?

why not face the family finance pressure i had been having? the family wasnt rich, and out of the little pay i got, i still had to give at least 20% of my pay to them as household money.

why not face the relationship problems i have? BB and i were on hard rocks last week, nobody cares and even know it happen.

and so on, why do i have to face u lot who just happy-go-lucky everyday, and spend ur parents' hard-earned money in high class cafes or branded clothes and bags???!!!

some told me 'treasure those friends who have been there for u since ages.'

put it in a way, what are friends again?

define sincerity.
there is none.
define helpfulness.
there is none too.
define honesty.
worst of all, its practically empty.

instead i seen ppl change.
some change for better some change for worst.

for me, i opt for a direction which is best for myself.
i do not wan to live up to the expectations of others, i seek my lifelong education and career as my death wish.

well for some, are still living ur day, day by day.

sarcastically, i read sher's blog a day about her woes with her friends too, where her friends sort of accuse sher of making use of them to do things etc for sher.

i tagged her :'dun worry gal, true frens will offer their help to u automatically.'

and now it strucks me.
i had none!

dammit, ya, dammit.

so again, there is this idiot here who say to me, u so long nv join them (us).

to u, idiot, u also.

fullstop.

to many, i might look strong and healthy and straighforward.

but rmb, u ask my opinions first before i am being straightforward.
rmb, i can just suddenly have a high temperature on my forehead with no warning.

and strong?
yea, someone commented that im strong too.

strong-willed.
this is a mindset u need to give urself.

and who the hell would noe that when i faced problems in work, all i could do is go to the toilet cubicle, sat in there for minutes, gave myself few tight slaps before going back to work?

this is really the limit.

i have often able to see thrgh ppl's real faces.
and when i pointed it out, most of them denied right away, and is real scared of me, that they shuns me away, or even call me names like hypocrites or betrayer or realist.

i just seen that the lot is still childish or have nt waken up from their dreams yet.
those beautiful dreams.

but i have already woke up, and is living right now in this world of nightmares and pollution.

do i need frens now? alot alot of them?

no.

like i say to sher, true frens, is wad we need.

and there is only one that i need, and have, is you.

a true fren.


i will be closing this blog and opening another, but i doubt i need to give the link to anyone, bcoz nobody wans to link me anyway, lol~!

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Lijun. Laikuan. 20+ years old. Attached to Sherman BB. Presently studying and slacking.

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