v tired!!!!

its an excuse lar...

actually is... harvest moon:island of happiness finally out le!!!

so today i will cut short my post and speed off to play my much anticipated game!

things to blog:
- Comex Fair with BB today at suntec
- Thai Express at Marina Square as dinner with BB
- switch job scope today at work, learn from the start
- job scope includes making formal calls to customers

i hate formal call-makings!
i just cannot speak well in english to other ppl FORMALLY.

BUT.

if im the one who is answering the qns, i can answer fluently!
therefore when im the one who is asking the qns, i stuttered.

anyways, company D&D is coming up in 2 weeks time.
i wonder if im eligible anot, haha...

in 2 weeks time, my results is out! >.<

i found my dream knee-high socks today, at FOX!
im gonna grab it sooner or later.

tml's programme:
- 4+pm show, Wall-E at vivo
- dinner at vivo
- night safari (finally!)

its a fun-filled weekend with my BB...
muackz :D

hmmm...

nth to update except...

2 more weeks to result release!!!!!!

2 more weeks to MISIA concert!!!

first day at work!

im late for abt 5 mins... haha!

but luckily, nobody notices! lol~

first impression at work was that i think im wearing too formal... coz the other gals wore quite casual, one even wore jeans lei!

then, second impression, i realise is they wear too casual liao... haha...

anyways, dressing doesnt count to work performance...

had lunch with yufen at clifford centre... on the way back to work, discover my temporary visitor pass is missing! 30 bucks compensation laaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

paid, and 2 weeks i will not have any shoppings.
and im left with 5 bucks in my wallet le...
money is flowing out fast............

at work, theres this intranet msn thingy call Sparks de...
well, this gal who mentors me, nv switch off her conversation...
and hoola~ i saw it and sees that the other temp staff (some snotty gals and ugly bois, bleah!) keep saying our dressing and looks...
(fyi, including me there are 5 temp staff reporting today too)
and say things like 'wa lao no chio bu, call cannot make it..', 'lucky i nv struck lottery no need teach ppl if not i vomit blood..', and 'die la, later bring them go eat sure no seats to find for so many ppl zzz'.
honestly, these kinds of words can be found from the mouth's or snotty undergrads.
and confirmed, they are SIM undergrads!

how come they are so different from the undergrads i noe... at least liting xq mel are not so snobbish...

after tt, i was kind of slpy...
so i went to a toilet to slp for 5 mins.... (wahaha~)
when i came back, this gwen gal said tt she wonder if i understand her teachings anot...

and honestly, she dun teaches well lei... hmm...

she just kind of teaches wadever documents she has on hand and tell me immediately how to settle it...
i am the one who has to figure out how this whole credit card conversion processes to be took place and how i should process the documents in my hands...

im still blur...
firstly, im slpy...
secondly, she's not tt accurate...

thus tml, i will have 100% concentration is gg thrgh all the stuffs, see it word by word and process it.

today, laikuan's speed of work is the slowest ever in her history.
tml, it will recover back to its original.

btw, im suay-ed today... 30 bucks gone on first day of work... luckily i commit 2 mths and wait for my dearest DBS to call me PLS!

presenting my buy of the week, new additions to my wardrobe!!!

first of all, thank u to BB... muackzzzzzzz~




groceries shopping at ntuc includes hair wax, cupboard refreshers, water bottle and facial foam... BB also had facial foam, hangers, body mist and air refreshener...
groceries i paid 40+ ... >.<



discounted checkered shirt at 20+... from pepperplus...



black office shirt at 30... pepperplus...
BB paid 50+ for my clothings deee.... hehe~

had LJS for dinner...
and BB is v tired and moody whole day~!
must be the stupid AHM that made my BB get soaked in the rain and ached all over...

time for beauty slp and get super early up tml for work - first day!

*excited, first time work in a big firm - bank*

ppl say:

在外靠朋友,在家靠父母...

me lei?

我可以靠谁?

depend on frens? honestly can depend 100% meh?

afterall, frens only, they dun have the obligations and responsibilities to look after u... they can only look after u out of frenship and it doesnt last forever rite?

and the frens i can depend on, other than the 2 ppl - taima jiani - for financial support..

who else?

depend on family? dun shit me pls.

depend wad? money? support?

i have nth from them except a bed to slp in.

thank u very much ar.

sometimes even get the respond of 'u wan money? i dun have, borrow from ur frens lo!'

clap clap.

ironic ironic ironic.

i have such a pathetic life which i cant still get out of this small and shallow shell.

im like a hermit crab who cant change her shell without finding a new one. and gradually, a hermit crab without a new shell just dies.

*****

wanted to go suntec to gai gai today de...
but BB nv wake me up..

also gd la, im so tired..
im must slp to my fullest for these last 2 days..
last i start work.. i doubt i can slp more than 10 hrs a day anymore..

dark eyes circles will be plague-ing me soon...

*****

watched Fated To Love U throughout thye nite ytd...
i teared in alot of scenes!

some scenes are where Xinyi gonna to married to Ji Cun Xi and Xinyi's mother cried to her to take care and even give her the largest pack of dowry, the scene where Cun Xi tell Xinyi to abort the baby, the scene where Cun Xi wanted Xinyi to sign the divorce paper and Xinyi strike off the NT5 million amount, and the most saddest scene when Xinyi's baby is lost!

i learned a new term too: 夹娃娃

fyi, its not clamping those stuff toys in the coin-ing machine hor..
it has another meaning, and ppl who watch the drama,, will noe...

waiting for the final episode to come out!

a normal day of mac and maggi mee.
and with my BB.

:)

money really nt enuf to use.
decide not to burden myself by saving so much for hk trip.
so, decided to go neighbouring countries instead.
sounds boring, but, anywhere with BB is gd enuf for both of us.

:)

interview at OCBC 3.40pm today...
was late 10 mins... lol~

luckily no one said 'missy u r LATE'...
and the interview ms magdalene is a nice aunty/lady~

overall my interview is quite short... less than 15 mins...
and the direct qns to me is 'can u start work on monday? we v urgent.'
and the direct answer to them is 'okay no problem.'

then it was some qns on dress code, working hrs and paywise...

and turn one big round, im in the same company with ah fen again!
just tt this time we dun have to work tgt...
in terms of department, location and PAY, we are on different level...

after interview went home...
then go out again to go cut hair at jurong west as well as pass CLEO to ah fen...
wanted to cut at shirley ma, but full appt...
so went to evolution hub instead...

i actually wanted to cut my hair short de...
but on further tots...
i couldnt bear to part with my sparse but long hair...
it would take 1 yr to grow back the same length if i chop off my locks today!

so, just cut cut trim trim and thinned it more...

these are the things tt i wanted to buy for the next few days/weeks:

- hairdryer (a simple one to make my hair drier than wet after bath)
- garnier facial foam x2 (mine and BB's finished liao~)
- office skirt x2 (use suntec vouchers to buy ba)
- one pair of flats/pumps (my red one disappeared mysteriously lor)
- office blouse/shirt x2 (usual practice of celebrating my newfound job)

these are the payments to be made:

- aerobics lesson at JWSSC (2 weeks later must pay liao!)
- MISIA concert tickets (also 2 weeks later must buy liao)
- handphone bills (usual mthly payment zzz, next week must pay liao!)

so overall, i will need abt 300 to pay for everything... zzz...

and i only gt 200 in my wallet now!

plus plus, the allowances needed for a mth before i get my first pay...

oopsie i still owe taima money -.-

argh! 钱果然很难存啊!!!!!!

only october then gt money le...

will be going for interview at OCBC tml...
some temp position for admin clerk under cards operation...

can see from the title above...
it will be a busy yet boring job... as in...
i wun be feeling much satisfied from this job...

yet and yet, i still hope for DBS to call me!!!

pls tell me u r shortlisted la etc etc.
too bad, no matter they shortlist u or not, they wun inform u...

-.-

viewing kelly services annual salary report for the year..

these are some figures tt u might be interested in...

in the banking sector:

- Bank Teller N/O Levels 1-3 years exp SGD 1300 - 1900
- Bank Clerk (remittance/settlement/loans) O/A Levels 1-2 years exp SGD 1500 - 2000
- Trade Finance Clerk O Levels/Diploma 2-3 years exp SGD 1900 - 2600
- Bank Operation Officer Degree 0-1 years SGD1800 - 2600
- Customer Service Officer Diploma/Degree 2-3 years SGD2000 - 2800
- Personal Financial Consultant/Personal Banker Diploma/Degree 2-3 years SGD2200 -3200

in the finance sector:

- Accounts Clerk O Levels/Certificate 1-3 years exp SGD1500 - 1800
- Payroll Clerk O Levels/LCCI 1-2 years exp SGD1600 - 2200
- Accounts Assistant O Levels/Certificate 1-3 years exp SGD1800 - 2400
- Financial Analyst Degree 2-3 years exp SGD3000 - 4500
- Auditor Degree/Professional Certification 2-4 years exp SGD3000 - 4800
- Accountant Degree/Professional Certification 4-5 years SGD4000 - 6500
- Administrator Diploma/Degree 3-5 years exp SGD2600 - 3800



view more at: http://www.kellyservices.com.sg/res/content/sg/services/en/docs/singapore_salar_handbook08.pdf


gotta go and see wad 'formal attire' to wear for interview tml le...
but im most likely to wear smart casual only... hehe~

BB's daddy gave me 50 dollar suntec voucher~
(i requested for it actually, hoho)
originally daddy wanted give me 150 de lo...
but BB say no need...
-.-

shopping trip before interview tml!

i finally finish my nightmare exam of the year...

and until the 2 hrs ends, im still writing for answers...

i realise i can figure out abit of every qns, but i need time to think and phrase and write it out...

but the time isnt enuf... perhaps i spend too much time doing calculations...

perhaps it was also mental strain, i keep hitting the wrong tabs on the calculator...

i tried hard to convince myself tt this time's exam is still not bad, but i recalled, last time i also think lidat, i FAILED lei...

so now, i beta prepare for the worst til 12th september.

if i pass, it means im fated to study for uni, if i still fail, it means im fated to be housewife.
buddha will decide for me :D

one part of me wish to get hold of a job quick and fast, coz i need money... i wan to go for aerobic class ($65), misia concert ($70), rebonding ($60) and the ultimate holiday trip at the end of the year... but if i were to get a job now, it will have to be a temp and i have to be tied down by it for at least 2 mths...

another part of me tell myself to enjoy until 12th sep, wait for results to come out, so then i can really go and get a full time high apid job instead of temp-ing all the while... but, i dun have to the $$$ to be able to enjoy freely until 12th sep...

contradicting, again.

BB had book out today until tml... but he gotta burn his days till sunday... zzz...
tml will be mahjong sessions with his mates until they book in tgt...

im relax now.
im half-freed now.
i wan to be happy.
but honestly, i cant bcoz i tried to be happy, i saw SOMEONE, i dulled again.

but i will try yet again, for a new and beta life, without ur concerns.

i will not repeat ur stunts as u did to me.
for my future kids, i will treat them with care and love.
there will be no bias.
there will be security.
there will be no sex discrimination.

doing nth but continuing to read notes and doing past yr papers...

ZZZ

trend news:

the next big hit in shoes... BOOTS and MARYJANES!!!!

stock them up, they are not even just trendy for this fall, but also staples for work~

*****

watched the table tennis tournament for gold medal in the evening...

singapore lost 3-0... but they still got a silver~!

*my tots: i think south korea abit bo song tt singapore won them... hmmm....*

*****

slp thrgh the wholeeeee afternoon today... damn tired... and also nth to do la, so slp lo...

had pizzas for dinner...

*****

i hoped i wun be called up for interviews tml coz i need to study for tuesday's exam...
but... i think 90% they will call...
and for my exam... i think i can only score 30% lidat only... still fail lei... zzzz...

still, i just wish for a P...

*****

saw the national rally by PM Lee...
i agreed with wad he said!

although he sort of cant pronounce 'marriage' in chinese properly...
he mention the impt part of that 'young couples should balance well in family and career.. if u concentrate on ur career in ur youth.. u might be too late for ur 'ying yuan' when u had established ur career.. thus, its a gd method to establish a family first before establishing ur career..'

i agreed!!!

but i nv saw the part when he mention new measures to encourage young couples to get married, child growth and HDB housing helps...

i hope it would be benefit me more, and all those who wan to get married too!

im available for mahjong at friday nites now... hehe~
anyone wan mahjongs, call me!!

went suntec today, bought nth but BB's jacket...

left 150 dollar of vouchers, i hope to have one too so next week i can go and buy some office clothes...

nv go night safari le...
first, im lack of serious slp...
second, BB say he's tired that one day can only go out ONCE...
-.-

so next next week then go again...

a qns to pose for all to reference reference...
lets say u were offered 2 jobs, both are in the same working industry (eg, banking or engineering)...
Job A is near ur hse (probably few stop of bus journey like 15 mins), and offer u a pay like 1500...
Job B is not near ur hse (the journey to work takes ard 1 hr), but offers u a pay like 1600...

which one will u choose?

*****

me and mel will be signing up for aerobics... thus there are still 14 vacancies left, anybody wan join?????? last callllllllllll~

Mel and me has decided to go for every fri's aerobics class at jurong west stadium.

anyone who is interested, pls tag or sms us.

tml, i will be gg to night safari~

*****

addicted to this fishing game recently.

River King: Mystic Valley

its a game where the protagonist's sister couldnt wake up from her slp. the boy went to the tree spirit for help and he told him that only the scale from the River King (a big fish) can revived her sister from her slp. thus, have to keep fishing different kind of fishes, exchange them for cards and fishing equipments, made ur way to the mystical valley where the river king lives, make frens and training ur monster pets along the way.

i have been fishing for 6 hrs and my profile isnt even 20% completed...

but, addictive, just like harvest moon...

and, harvest moon: island of happiness is coming on 26th august!

dedicated to Mel~

for CardioMIX sessions:

- 8 Sept to 1 Dec, Every Mon, 7.30pm to 8.30pm

for AEROBICS sessions:

- 29 Aug to 14 Nov, Every Fri, 7.30pm to 8.30pm

for KickBoxing sessions:

- 17 Aug to 12 Nov, Every Sun, 11am to 12am

tts all tts available for the moment at Jurong West SSC stadium liao...

choose and let me noe asap okie!!

other than cardiomix which is 85, the rest is 65...

*****

went for interview at Peace Centre today, so along the way asked BB if he wanna watch movie at Cathay...

btw, if u pay using Nets at Cathay now, its juts only 6 dollar per ticket, except weekends.

first, the interview.

i asked for a temp placement first, coz i dunno how my results fares yet.

then, i asked for a perm placement, i wanted 1600 and above, thus i tell her to quote the companies 1700 and above... companies tend to cut ur pay with excuses lar...

second, the Mad Jack.

Paradiz centre had a new mad jack restaurant... it seems not bad and cheap prices... so i choose tt place for dinner.

third, the movie.

Journey to the Center of the Earth.

as expected, its more nicer than Mummy 3... haha~

We're still falling!
- famous quote from Trevor.

after movie faster rush to MRT for BB had to booked in by 1030...

*****

bought cleo today, and i saw something catchy~

reasons why u hate ur job.

1. my co-worker dun like me

(sometimes, i just dun like bitches and bimbos, or rather, i have seen lone colleagues too, i dun like them either. and yet, this is the most discouraging factor for all ppl who hate their job1)

(advice: chat and talk and ask for a mini-gathering session after work to noe each other beta.
results: i didnt do these. i rush home or rush to meet my bf after work everytime.)

2. my talent's being wasted

(yes, sometimes i can do more than just scanning and photocopying and entering data. but bosses dun see that. this is also why most ppl feel dissatisfied too.)

(advice: volunteered for extra work tt can 'showcase' ur talents. this also means lesser 'me' time.
results: if it benefits me, why not? if its time-consuming, i rather waste my talents. true for all?)

3. i been overlooked for a promotion again

(i nv had a promotion yet. but im think for others who had, it must be v disappointing tt u just lost the motivation to 'pia' for ur career again.)

(advice: show a positive attitude towards not being promoted. leave a gd impression to the boss.
results: nv tried. but could it be the boss dun like u at all? hmmm~)

4. im not being paid enuf

(ah~ gd reason. who will always think tt they are being paid enuf? wun u just ask for more and more all the time? well, sometimes, ppl are just underpaid too... but the market is versatile.)

(advice: work hard and ask for a pay rise NICELY.
results: i nv asked for a pay rise. but i think most ppl dun dare to ask for it, the just suffer it in themself more and more that the grudges just accumulate.)

5. my colleagues always take credit for my work

(it happens to me, on a smaller scale. wad to do? just tell urself tt the boss is blind. *shrugs*)

(advice: keep ur name of the documents, keep original copies and drafts.
results: if u still have ur name erased, its either u r stupid or ppl are more cunning than u. they are not smart, its cunning!)

6. it's simply impossible to please my boss

(i have met a few before, bosses are still bosses. even though they say tt 'u can have absolute flexibility in ur job', they still expect u to follow their rules. no flexibility, NV!)

(advice: communicate. 拍马屁.
results: i didnt bother to do that, so not me. but i seen others doing a great job. its nicer and wiser to have thick skin in the working world.)

7. i cant strike a work/life balance

(erm... so u prefer to go home early to watch tv or slp after a day's work? or go to hit the clubs or have high-class dining? i prefer a mix. no much problem for me.)

(advice: plan ur time well. have a notebook or organiser.
results: it works well. coz u wun forget timings and dates. but, can u even rmb to bring tt notebook/organiser along with u everytime?)

8. i have zero interest in the company

(im not the boss. of coz i have no interest in the company. wahaha~
wait wait, i have no interests in the industry. yes.)

(advice: NOE wad u wanted to work for. not just work for money.
results: who could ever find the perfect job?)

thats all~ btw, the results are my personal results ya?

its a pity... hai...

puffy spree had to be cancelled, gals...

coz the quota of 5 still cant be reached in 2 weeks...

sorry!!!


i have decided to go HK or TW this december :)
even if not, it will also be malaysia or thailand...

it will just have to be outside here!

i got a new job, and hopefully can start by next thurs...

finally exams will be done in a week... yay~

things are picking up and looks beta for me soon... i hope i hope i hope.

i dun expect a D, but i hope to at least have a P...

can anybody answer me this qns?

in the present workforce, a UNISIM cert or a SIM-UOL cert is more recognized for employers?

i need asnwers~

tml's test will occupy 30% of my module... sian...
abit dull life... i just submitted new resumes for other jobs... lol~

a day of no meaning today... BB wanted to bring me out for movies...
but the seats sucks... so forgo lo...
after tt went to his hse to 'cry'...
this mth's event is so nth la...

all ruined... zzz...
by tt stupid guy in this battalion...

i hope next week's plan wun be destroyed by another stupid guy...
i wan a fun-filled week..
im bored..

next week will be:
- my movie plan: Journey to the Center of the Earth
- japanese food trying at JP basement 1
- night safari trip

BB's mummy's company always had gd lobangs for their employees...
for example, she got 2 night safari tickets... for free!
so me and BB gonna go there to see some animals, although no point but dun wanna waste it...

i hoped DBS call me tml ^^

at least tell me 'im sorry u r not shortlisted' so i can go find another job asap...
i need money for my 21st overseas trip...

btw, im still short of 2 more pieces for my puffy spree!!
i will warp up by wednesday liao... so sian of waiting... zzz~

and also, i took off my extensions today, with the help of BB...
gg to do up my hair this week...

today's movie and japanese food plan has been thrashed by BB' sudden turnout...

-.-

sibei sian... in the end have to give up the movie tickets to BB's parents...

BB's sudden turnout is caused by some fugging idiots who bring some XX out of the camp, and the idiot went to have a drink at boat quay and suddenly police raids the place and searched his bags... found the XX...

real stupid idiot, but fear not, he didnt bring some rifle out la, but some XX...

(im not sure whether i can mention these things anot, who cares? hehe~ *see it if u can!*)

and the plan was ruined, and i stayed at home to wait for BB's return till 6 plus... went makan at his cousin's place...

sorry to say but the brinjal is not well-cooked and the curry is too spicy... plus THREE dogs running around make me sneeze till so hard...

left the hse, reached BB's home, wanted to take of my extensions le, but BB's aunt came for mahjong... and i lost a hefty 10 dollars...

i been losing money nowadays! pls dun call me for mahjong until im earning bucks okay!
erm, maybe when i got the DBS job, u can ask me for mahjong again :)

tml will be BB's papa bringing us to suntec city to walk walk and buy things...

so it means, i wun have my Journey To The Center Of The Earth movie plan for this week liao...

sian...

but but but, to my dear BB:

happy 17th month~! love u muacks muacks~

***

was having msn conversations with a gal who i used to partner with when im playing Audition...

she complained to me that she had a boyfren recently, and her mum get to knew it, and she ordered her brother to sms her every 2 hrs to ask her where she is and with who when she's out with the bf...

i told her not to be too upset about it that as long as her mum and her bro didnt start following them ard will be fine...

so, parents, are u really worried or are u just afraid that 'something' will happen that will make u lose face?

so, parents, can u really control ur children who is well over 18?

so, parents, dun think u can control ur child's bf/gf as well?

luckily, even though ma nv acknowledge BB, she didnt order him ard, as well as forcing him to must bring me home everytime...

not sure whether its correct to praise her, i rather not, for now.

=X

finished watching zettai kareshi lo~

afterall, jap dramas are the best!

tear-ed at the final episode only... coz v nice de ending...

anyway, ending quite different from comic's also...

watched it~!

crap-ping and crab-bing with CnP girls today...
photos will be found at Mel's blog :)

overall verdict for that restaurant: 2/5 (so-so only)

but the crap-ping was nice... haha~

went to look at DBS webby today... they had refreshed the post that i wanted today too...
hope they will call in a few days... no matter will get hired 100% anot... at least interview first lar...

(though jiejie say if got interview then will get hired, and the podders in FP say if a post was kena refreshed few times, it means nobody went for the interview...)

so, does that mean that my post wasnt well-liked?

lol... nvm la... not nice then transfer department in the future :)

mugging for books ytd whole nite, thus can slp until evening today, yippee~

tonite gotta continue le... hai...

just sent the cover letter, resume and job application to DBS... with the job referral... i hope to have it to be successful and hopefully got a call for interview in 2weeks...

while writing the cover letter, it was long and detailed, feeling like writing my life story sia... haha...

that someone in the hse is still complaining non-stop, honestly, if u see ur husband so kelian and painful etc... u can drop ur finances in the first place by purchasing insurance. u didnt.

and i wonder how longgggg it has been since i tell the two old of u to buy insurance.

and i didnt have mine too. i have to buy myself. :)

but the payout was so low that even if i died and the sum assured was fully cashed out, ppl might still have to 倒贴 money to held my funeral.

my life is so ironic up till now. i will have the better and best for myself without these fake-idiotics.

back to mugging books, 2 textbooks to be in fact... zzzz~

The Tour Of Misia Discotheque Asia

13 September 2008, 8pm

Singapore Expo

Prices from 148, 128, 98 and 68

im gonna watch it, even though nobody seem to be interested >.<

sometimes cant stand ppl telling me 'wad for go to watch a japanese language concert, u dun even noe wad they are singing'...

i will say these ppl are quite ignorant...

first, music has no boundaries...
second, mandarin songs are boring...
third, japanese songs are just my taste - groovy, alluring, catching and addicting.

yes, i might not noe wad they are singing la, but their music and the way they sing out, i cant find any modern mandarin singers who can sing well nowadays...

my personal opinions... but i will definitely and must go to her concert... 一百年难得一见, 在新加坡...

first j-pop concert i do not have to go to japan to watch~

back to my dailies:

i lost something but i gain something...
thats why i always say, be contented, but dun be insulted and mistreated...

i threw my job today...
i was saved from debarrment today...

i rather study harder at home for my exams rather than work unhappily under mistrust...

but im not happy at home either...
it feels i dun belong here too...

by thursday will have to hand in 650 to sch le...
haiz....
i feel so dui bu qi to my BB...
its his money lei...
he dun have the commitment to pay for me...
but he did it... im so glad to have him...
if not for him... i might even not be able to have my exams without getting myself debarred...

this is all for today, im waiting patiently for the referral and DBS call...

btw, PUFFY SPREE extended for one more week!!
more orders and we alll can share cheaper shipping fees~!

before i went home today, BB's mama still held me on the shoulder and say 忍...
i understand wad she mean...
it will be the last time...

anyway i think i had enuff of her and u all who read it might also start to feel sian liao...


start to mug books for my oncoming exams next week...

i must pass this time...

i couldnt afford to fail... i couldnt afford to be LOOK DOWN again...

well, if the worst happen that i still fail~
i will find a job and quit school forever!

i still wanna say thank u to my BB...
only u r there for me, my love...

we will marry next yr october :)

in a week time, i will change my url again...
sorrie to all frens, haha, as i keep changing...
lol...

i cannot stand ppl keep stalking my blog and kpkb abt it...

nor can i stand ppl who read my blog and yet refusing to respect my thinking feelings and opinions...

ytd nite, i was slpless til 5am+...

i should be slping, and tml i still have to battle at work and school...

yet im slpless bcoz, i finally looked into the accts book, which she always dared me to see...

the laptop, the insurance, were all fakes and lies...
she still can say that into my face, expecting me to believe?

i cannot understand, why u have to keep lying to me?
telling the truth is hard is it?

i feel that u have conspired with the whole family to turn against me...
wad for ask papa whether i have speak or complain to him ytd nite?
he always have the idea of 'dun pull me into ur shit' attitude...
plus, u have already make him believe its my fault...

why are u so scared?
why are u so afraid and angry on wad i wrote?
those ppl reading my blog werent supposed to noe u...
scare wad?

oh well, other than one...
but i tot u always say u not afraid to lose face, so wad are u so angry on wad i wrote on the blog?

u are so contradicting.

when im scolding other ppl on my blog or having quarrels with BB, u read it happily...
when i wrote abt u, u totally cant accept being criticized by me...

u warned me not to blame other ppl, u found this blog urself...
hey! i noe u for 20 yrs...
i would like to ask, how u find it?
pls show me ur ways and methods and i will BELIEVE ur lies...

when did i ever lie to u?
i cant even rmb talking long with u, coz ALWAYS when i tried to share my life with u, be it my studies, my job, my frens, even BB, u start to pull wet blanket on me...

when did u ever PRAISE me?
none.

u nv did it once.

u said that wadever i do, is for my own self. then why are u bother abt my LIFE now?????

u have nv ever care.

u have no idea how i had to struggle.
is those 10~20 dollar a week in poly enuf for me to use?
i dun even noe i have to spend it on food or transport.
i still have to pay for notes and textbooks.
yes, i did went out to work.
i need to have more money, i wan to spend, i wan to wear beta and nicer clothes to present myself beta, which gal doesnt like to dress up nicely?
plus, i wan to eat, i always like to eat GOOD food, cant i?
and, those are the money that i earned myself.

a laptop of 1000 dollars, u wan to calculate it with me.
u put it clearly in ur accts.

few mths of hp bills 2 years ago, u wan to calculate with me.
u put it clearly in ur accts.

the chalet fees for 300+ for 2 yrs ago, in case CnP u guys dunno... i make abt 300 loss on that chalet...
in case u cant rmb, ur son gave up the other room and i have to take it, and even incur the losses.
i swallow down the debt.
u put it clearly in ur accts.

my laptop was spoilt.
160 dollars of repairing fees.
u put it clearly in ur accts.

and wad else?
100 dollars of membership fee for the supplementary buffet club card.

was there even a single thing that u did not ask for money from me?

do i look so rich to u?

u dun ever noe how hard i have to suffer bcoz of money and yet u always quarrel money with me.

as much as i scolded u and fight and talkbacked with u, i nv once scold u vulgar.
that son of urs, tortoise, wang ba dan chou ji dan everything came out.
u and papa still can laugh at it.

i gave the 2 of u up.
continue! to show ur favouritism in front of me.
say loudly! that the laptop and insurance fee is u paid for it.

u say u dun ever wan to talk to me coz i scolded u here?
ok, i wun talk to u either.

why?
i dun even noe wad to talk to u, we had no more things to talk to.

u said u read my blog urself.
i hope u understand wad im writing here.

thank u very much for reading my diary online.

oh ya, in addition, i just tot of a new possibility...
that U might really have surf the net and read my blog...
kudos to u, u finally learn how to surf the net and read english...

but, it still doesnt change the fact that SOMEONE gave u the url rite?

i repeat, nobody else including my own frens will have contact with u.
if u really wan me to believe that u spotted it ur own, show me how u do it plz.
the internet might be wide and powerful, but, without the exact link like email address, u can only find shit.

plz, im not 12, im 21.
give me a better excuse when u say something lidat 'profound'.

im pissed, and even more angry than anybody now.
someone just messed up my life.
aunty ho is not supposed to be reading and noe the contents of my blog.
why?
this is my personal diary which i would like to share with my fren and ppl i trusted.
i have the RIGHT to write abt my own personal things, happy, sad or angry.
put it, this is my humanity rights.

besides, why should she be angry when i wrote stuffs abt her?
nobody knew it except my frens whom u can find their links on the sidebar.
they dun even knew u, aunty ho.
they dun even rmb ur face.
so wad, if i publicize it on my blog.
nobody knew.

and yet u knew. obviously someone told u.
and yet, u also said u dun mind washing dirty linen in the public.
then why do u even flare up on wad i wrote.
i have the basic right to even penned down my tots ok!

to that obvious someone again, i cant trust u anymore.
i dunno why, that i felt that i cant trust an adult for the first time in my life.
why do u have to do this kind of meaningless thing, AGAIN?

wasnt last time enuff to land me into trouble with my family again?
i just wan to frustrate out my anger in my own personal space, not really into big fights and dis-owning the family.

now, im on the verge of doing so.

to that obvious someone again and again, i hope u can be honest and tell me the truth!
if u didnt do it, pls tell me, i willing to trust ONE LAST TIME.

i still hope that its not u, but, it seems impossible.
if not, aunty ho really make it obvious that u are the only one capable of doing so.
among her frens, who would have known my email contacts but u?

im not afraid of anything now, im prepare to lose and leave here.
u wan me out of the hse, i will go.

watched the mummy 3 today at west mall... one tix abt 2.50 only... haha~
overall, i still like the mummy 1 or 2... haha~
coz Egypt setting more like it... lol~
the china setting was erm erm... u guys read it urself ba...

abt today, there was some aftermath with me and lao bu....

i tell u all wad happen ok?

for random 2 posts if u guys haven been keeping watch, i scolded someone in my family rite?

and there is none other than aunty ho...

actually, other than this is a FACT, i did it on PURPOSE also...

yea, we argued we quarrel... but after some talking with grandma and BB, i let it go...

however, i decided to check something out...
coz i have been finding some uncanny weird ip that i dun think belongs to any of my frens (as simple as link to see some of the tags ip lo~)

so i blog abt her, big and LOUD!!

anyway she make me really fumed...
all she can say is the family no income no nth, she doesnt wan to pay sch fees in FULL...

i wonder who boast that she WILL PAY...

anyway, i think im the only one who loaned from first yr till now... still haven repay...
i had a talk with BB's mama today, i think she's great...

and i told BB that her mum gt the wishes to wan us to stay tgt in the hse after we are married...
BB said: "ya la, mummy is a bit weird and abit naggy, but she's really gd and wun purposely pick fight with her daughter-in-law de..."
i agreed...
i think no one will feel for me how happy i am when his mummy call me Daughter Daughter and his grandma call me 未来孙媳妇...

im feel so ashamed to tell his parents that till now till this date, lao bu wan to call BB 男性朋友...
IS IT SO FUCKING HARD TO ADDRESS BB AS MY 男朋友??

i am v disappointed in u.

sidetrack sidetrack...

u guys NOE that i have changed my address once rite?
from rei-blurryeyes to junnish-rei...

who have i told?

who will noe my blog?

i can make a handcount here k...
the ppl are:
- BB
- probably BB's fren
- CnP cliche
- some FP podders
- some frenster kpo
- a ppl whom i tested

to the ppl who i tested, im disappointed in u too...

thats why: AUNTY HO NOE WHAT IM WRITING IN MY BLOG AND SHE SCOLD OUT THE HELL OF ME JUST MOMENTS AGO, IM ABSOLUTELY FINE WITH IT, COZ I WAS PENDING THE DAYS WHERE SHE WILL BURST IT OUT AND PROVEN MY 'TEST' IS CORRECT.

first, why i think 'somebody' told her...
- my frens, i noe u all SHUN her like hell, u cant even tell her thrgh phone nor email nor msn that wad i crapped in my blog
- she doesnt noe a single thing abt INTERNET, when she's purposely added that she surf the net herself to see it, A BIGGER SUSPECT found
- she doesnt understand english, sadly
- she doesnt noe my url, msn address nor frenster address
- i have not told wingwing my new blog address
- sort of, she broke her whole bucket of lies...
- someone has obviously told her
- and that someone, is none other than someone who NOE how to search for names in friendster and received my msgs on my changing on blog address

why not i tell u now?

i noe u big adults trusted her, i bet u have no idea wad she do to me...
continue to worship her, for i no longer worship her in my heart...
she's gd to me?
she wanted me to pay 100 for the buffet club membership when i only told her that i went once with jia ni...
she wanted me to have bank loans (hahaha, i cant forget it although i have forgiven, she landed the young 18-year old laikuan in her first financial debt ever)
she only gives poor laikuan 20 BUCKS per week in POLY...
she has not fulfilled her promise to let poor laikuan to learn her driving lessons (yea, she promised it WAS A 18-YEAR-OLD BDAE PRESENT)
i bet she nv told those rich aunties and tai tai that it is her daughter bdae, and YES, i yearn for ang pao money can?
she broke her promise just ytd, that she will NOT SPONSOR my 21st bdae party..
i cant rmb, hahaha, sarcastically, the last time she treated me v v v gd that i love her so much...

all i can rmb, is she always left me in empty promises...
since 13, i think is 13, she has always beat me up (just bcoz i rebutted her and she couldnt find the answers), she always broke her promises, whatever shit also dun have my part...
once, she even encourage papa to beat me up with this wooden plank on my back...

always, she think she's right...
she think she's always the one making the biggest sacrifices in the family...
she orders papa ard, sometimes, i wish i can ask a little pocket money from papa (maybe 10 dollars), papa will just open up his wallet say 'i dun have money'...
she even make the youngest one in the family to look down one the big sister who doted him so much...

who had she done to make me happy before?
yaya, linked back pls... she couldnt even bring me to genting to have holidays to the 5 yrs old me...

i TRIED, to put myself in her shoes to think...
maybe she really dun have money for me, she has her problems and difficulties...

but, wasnt she a fortune-teller?
she always say that when i shake shake my ass, she will noe my actions my thoughts...

so maybe now, the person who told her my contents in my blog, pls tell her also, did she noe how long that i have penned up my unhappiness towards her?

frens u will noe, laikuan doesnt cry...
i dun even rmb i got cry before anyone ever...
not in the public...
she's the only one that can make me cry in the room for hours not stopping...

yes, im crying now.

and the person who told her, yea u did it, and yes, thanks for doing it, im happy... it means that to this day im still holding up my rights and opinions... just tell her wadever bullshit u see can?

oh btw, i not scolding u, u are a elder anyway :)

i once tot that, maybe u are really not the one who told her all the things, but, ur child splurt some nonsense on my blog, then did i noe u noe my url, im sorry, but i find it just so hard not to think that it was U, esp tt, u r the only person that i send a msg telling i changed my blog address...

im sorry i did this despicable trick, but to me this is a self-defense trick... i need to noe who are the ppl that is xiao ren to me...

i wish, that u can tell me HONESTLY, if it was u...

trust, i dunno who i can ever trust now...
i trust my family, they always left me high up in the hopes and give me wet blanket...
i trust the aunties who always visit my place, i even ask them for opinions and etc, yet, they dun even noe the basic of respecting ppl's tots and bao tou me...
i trust my frens, many times, they betrayed me...

BB, u and ur family are the last ppl on earth tt i can trust... pls can left me alone to die...

if can, i will wan to give up my diploma now...
if can, i wan to get married now...
if can, i wan to get out now...

i still hold back, coz i couldnt bear to leave the hse...
we still have a fun time moving to this new hse of ours...
i still hold back, coz i dun really wan to end up with my family of my own...
i wish i have a happy chinese new year collecting ang pao from everyone...
i still hold back, coz we have a big family...
grandpa grandma aunties and uncles...

but seems, theres nth to hold back anymore...
i will leave the hse asap i get the job in DBS, if things were still unchanged.

i doubt it will ever changed, coz, i just keep repeating and repeating.
im sick of it.

i just keep having negative feelings on u whenever we met.
maybe, living seperately, i can still have talks and dinners in peace once in awhile.
u said that u left home in msia at 17 to come out to sg to find a living.
i will do that too.
in fact, im late in doing that.
i might miss ur cooking one day.
but, i will not regret.
this is yet, the best decision for me, for us to make.
u do not wan to see me either, the gal who u dun like.

IM A FAILURE, i have failed in my life.

honestly now, i need someone to give me some fortune-telling...

i wun go to mama, coz i think she will be asking me for big angpaos ($30) and she will noe everything...

not yet so stupid to let her noe everything abt my life as yet... of coz there are also some secrets that i haven tell ANYBODY and not in this blog of coz...

btw, even if i noe how to read other ppl's ;ife, i cant read myself...

therefore if anyone noes any v accurate and cheap ones, like 10 and below, tell me pls...

asap... debarrment list and interview confirmation is coming soon... i need to noe answers!!!

today is the first day of the lunar seventh mth... and i had enuff of suay-ness today...

it concerns my studies (debarment list inactivation), my work (DBS interview unconfirm & current boss too f*cked-up), and of coz, aunty ho...

lets describe briefly wad aunty ho did to me:
- she say she doesnt have 600 to pay for my sch fees, 650 to be exact, me and BB need to fork out our asset to pay for it
- she doesnt wan to pay for my 21st bdae party

so guys, if u r looking forward to my 21st bdae party, THERE IS NONE...

too bad, i had a big quarrel with her in fact, and she still insist la... so, no bdae party for me~~

can anybody be more cham then me?

normally, ppl, including SOME frens dun even rmb my bdae, so i just let it pass by silently, i will have the day to myself and BB...

i dun need my family u noe, i dun even noe that if i have to classify them as important?
u can say im not filial, but, she doesnt treat me well in the first place...

yesh, it sucks to the hell...

i burnt my hand today while burning incense, she didnt even care or take a look...
full of unhappiness, i call up my godma and complain to her...
look, she's so worried that she said "dun do this to urself, faster go put soem toothpaste"

she's my godma only u noe, yet she CARES...

and funny thing is, my hand's hair is burnt till QQ and shorter to 1cm left... LOL

and now, a BIG news to J-popers...

u noe, a MEGA-STAR is coming to sg to have concert...

who?
who?
who?

tada~
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ITS MISIA!!!!!!!!!

its the legendary R&B singer who's singles topped every oricon chart since 10 yrs ago!!!

famous song includes: EVERYTHING, The Bird Which Cant Fly, Never-ending Story, Sleepless Nite Without You and so many more!!!

her concert will erupt in Singapore Expo on 13th September 2008, 8pm... its a 2-hr concert btw...

prices are $68, $98, $128 and $148

i might be getting the 98 or 128... haha

i noe, even though im poor enuf to rob bank, but i MUST go to Misia's concert! do u noe how rare is it for her to come in mini-singapore???

thus, anyone who loves her, contact me and we go watch tgt k?

hehe~

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Lijun. Laikuan. 20+ years old. Attached to Sherman BB. Presently studying and slacking.

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