i feel like killing myself.

*****

im not emo, im not depress, im not sadist either.
i think gals afterall, cannot control their emotions and feelings well.

sometimes i wonder, how can i manage to survive for the past 1 yr where u went army.
i have manage to meet u for every weekend, including days when u had nights out.
honestly, i have spend most of my times with u than with my parents and frens.
however, im willing.
my happiest days are the days i spent with u.
with u, i can just be a little mouse, dun need be da jie da, dun need shoulder responsibilities.
we can share burdens tgt.
with u, i can cuddle u, i dun have to feel stressed nor boring-ness.

*******

however, whenever we quarrel, we always forget the good times we had.
we just pin-point all the faults at once.
u do, i do.
however, in the end of it, just saying 'u noe i love u v much u noe', is v v v not enuff.
i noe, u noe, that we will walk tgt for the rest of our lives definitely.
we even had precise plans for the next few yrs.
but no matter how happy we are, they are also quarrels to be solved.

*******

my dear, i do not wan to make small things into big things.
yet, whenever u answer Z when i qns u A, IM SCARED...
insecure. emptiness.
its all there.
u noe me well, if i do not solve an on-hand problem, it will continue to plague me until i solve it.
inevitably, we quarrel, like ususal.
yea, quarrel is good.
in fact magazines often say quarrel is good for the health.
but, we will not quarrel for the same mistake u noe.

******

im still angry, but i admit im in the wrong for having such a temper.
im sorry.
but please, can u just, always take a slightly more longer time to see my msg, hear my words, listen and rmb wad i said?

******

for the past 1 yr where u were in army, i always nv fail to meet u.
not even ONCE.
but, use ur fingers and count, how many times u had ur 'cannot come out' thing happen?
and why do i always end up having to eat maggi mee whenever u 'cannot come out'?
my hair already drop the whole floor, i still have to drop MORE?

frens out there, those who think im not fat now, please stand out.
NOBODY WILL STAND OUT BCOZ WE ALL JOLLY WELL NOE HOW FAT I HAVE GROWN!
argz...

******

i need meet my frens tml for a breather. thanks karin, for asking me out. im really really appreciated.

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Lijun. Laikuan. 20+ years old. Attached to Sherman BB. Presently studying and slacking.

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